That's just life...

Adding this post scares me a little.  Mommies don't confess their weaknesses.  Well, I am about to.  I have learned a few things in my two and a half years of parenting.  I am pretty good at many of the things that come with being a parent.  I have great kids.  Outstanding kids.  I can take credit for this, yes, but they are great because of me and in spite of me.  I can be lazy.  Don't judge me.  This is partly why my children are as awesome as they are...
1.  I don't wake up well in the middle of the night.  I never had that mama instinct of "holy crap, they are rustling so I must get up."  I am NOT judging that instinct; rather I just ain't got it.  I love my babies.  I love them more than anything else I have encountered in this world.  But in the middle of the night when I have been sleeping for several minutes (newborn stage) or several hours (later stages), I wake up and pause.  I want to tell you that in my head I think, "Oh darling, if I wait a little while I will be teaching you how to self soothe."  In actuality, my thoughts aren't quite as lovely and I do not have self soothing thoughts in place.  I want them to go back to sleep for me.  Yup...just said it.  Guess what the end result has been?  Two children who have slept on their own and in their own beds since six weeks.  Yes, I am a miracle worker.  A lazy, not agreeable in the middle of the night, waiting for the real cries to start, hitting Chad and telling him that it is his turn miracle worker.  Don't you want me for your night nanny?
2.  My two and a half year old plays independently better than many of the 5 and 6 year olds I know.  Wanna know my secret?  Back to this lazy thing.  I love to read.  I like to watch crappy shows.  I even like to spend time cleaning (I know that's not really lazy at all).  So...I sit on my butt and do the things I need to do for me.  This is not the call CPS, the babies are sitting and crying, without food or attention sort of thing  This is the I am taking the half an hour between 1:00 and 1:30 for me.  Luci, you are on your own with your Legos, puzzles, babies, whatever.  Jude, have a go at the bouncy seat.  This mama is busy for me.  Most times of the day you can find me doing whatever my children need me to do.  Luci has never uttered the phrase, "Mama play with me" without either immediate response or an explanation for why it can't happen right then.  But because I need me time, my children are great at time with themselves.

Upon rereading, I see my mistake.  This was supposed to be a funny, let me tell you about it in a way that would help you see me.  I was kinda feeling bad about this lazy thing, but then I thought that other mommies could relate so I thought I'd put it out there.  Yet, this isn't about being lazy.  Its about taking a minute for yourself.  Damn...that's not funny.  That's just life...